Revelation

I recently realized that the majority of my exes have taken up with young ladies who they all seem to be considerably content with. I am oh so happy for them, don't get me wrong. What gets me in this discovery is my indifference... Shouldn't I be at least somewhat upset or unsettled? Many of my friends and acquaintances are on the road to seriousness in their relationships... and looking for it if they aren't. For some reason, though, I just don't feel there yet. I guess I am musing over this because I feel pressure to settle down, start a family, set my roots down, not only because it's what you're supposed to do but also because if I don't do it at the same time as my friends, will we still be good friends? It's weird. I am content but still slightly unfulfilled by my current state of being. Like I know that I'm happier being on this side of things but a part of me still wants to be on a predictable path.... too small a part to pursue, however.

Traveling in the past and being in Mexico for the past 6 months has given me a taste of what I want to do with the next few years of my life. In my opinion, it's too short to know and understand just one part of the world and its people. And furthermore, global awareness and sensitivity are becoming more and more of an essential quality for people to have with every passing day. Ok, ok. I'll end my preaching there.... Maybe I am just trying to make myself feel better. As a conclusion to this vent session I will just say that I am in a happy place right now. I don't know if I will grow tired of the lifestyle I am currently leading anytime soon, but for the time being I am comforted by these wise words... "Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

~ Mark Twain